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monday, again.

 10:29AM

    Since I've lasted posted, things have been moving. As I type this, I'm sipping coffee at a diner in Marietta, waiting on a steak breakfast that I just ordered. The last time I posted it was before the Holiday that just passed. The holiday treated me well, I saw friends and played a ton of disc golf. Yesterday I played 49 holes. 

    Still searching for a job. I am at a loss for words on what to do in terms of the job agency and the job they offered me. It's been about a month and they still haven't made a decision, or found a job for me. It's hard to stay in my "mode" of feeling good and working towards my goals, when no one else believes in you, your work ethic, and what you can do for them. 

    My mother's birthday is tomorrow. I will admit, there were times in my mental health spat, this day would pass and I would remember weeks later that her birthday was already on a past date. I'm happy I'm finally, FINALLY, feeling like I'm beginning to stride out this thing called life. Although I may not be where I want to be right now. I know the universe is in my favor (like always, even if it's hard to see.) I know personally that my perpetual quest for excellence is a driving factor in how I feel, and how I perceive other's including Mom's opinion on my success. My success is not determined by my family's perception, but who doesn't like it when people tell you they are proud of you? 

My food just arrived, here's the meal this AM.




I'll make another post today about the house that closes this evening and our eventual move! I can't forget to update on my music as well. SHOW THIS WEEKEND AT THE TAVERN 8-12. Come out!

until next time,
-david 


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