tracktailor's trimmings

 7:59AM          for the first time on this blog, I'm just pouring out thoughts. I've used this blog recently actually only as a check in for my artistry. I've come to realize I have a tough time trying to put my emotions into words in conversation. writing has always been a release, and im tryna find that this AM. first off, I just felt a degree of hopelessness this am as soon as I woke up. I cried in front of a friend yesterday and they stormed out when I couldn't encapsulate how I was feeling. homie didn't help when he left and said something about talking to someone since I wouldn't to him *door closes* idk bout y'all but that shit didn't fucking help. I went to the gym yesterday after that and got a good leg day in, but came home and depression slept from 4pm till: well, now.  I felt a bit manic the days before yesterday, not for any particular reason, just gratuitous amounts of energy and a lil bit of them fast thoughts feel me. I wouldn't call...

 11:04 PM January 8th, 2025 well, here we are it's 2025 and I'm still the same son of a bitch in the wind. Shout out Corey Smith (listen to "Next Year")      I will be the first to admit, I have no fucking idea what I'm doing this year. I took a job last year at a local dispensary, and it's been great. Now I'm at a crossroads.... go all in on the marijuana industry in Ohio, or plan my own business.      I have the equipment for the business I'm looking to start, yet I was offered full time at my dispensary and want to keep climbing the corporate ladder. I know it might be smoke up my ass, but the reception of my skills and drive has been recognized and talked about in terms of a corporate position. We will see how it pans out.  I have no idea which direction I'm going in life. I don't think anyone does tbh, but it sucks rn. I haven't felt this lost in awhile, yet I'm confident. I think I can chalk a lot of these feelings to being lonely...

thurs nov 28 aka thanksgiving 8:55pm what a great day today has been. slept in, had dinner with family at noon, cleaned house, and played video games with the homies. I've been at my spot in Logan since August, and it has been vibes imo.  entering producer mode for the winter. I have my laptop station setup for making music rather than mixing it. I'm going to try to start streaming on twitch Fridays 10-2 playing music on my cdjs. I also want to stream myself producing tracks as well. I did that in the past couple months and it was a successful venture.  starting on a new track this evening!  will update later!

  six twenty two pm     My goodness, so many changes since I last wrote. I think I was still in Marietta, OH prior to a temporary move to Vienna, WV before locating to my hometown of Logan, Ohio. What a time, let's recap shall we? Lollapalooza: So on like a Wednesday or a Thursday prior to Lolla weekend in Chiraq I went to Ft. Wayne, Indiana and purchased my dream dj setup with a sound system. Shout out to Sweetwater music, that place is CRAZY. A facility larger than the biggest Supercenter you can imagine-- think Cabelas but much larger.      Got the VIP treatment from my sales engineer, 12/10 would recommend for any professional in the sound world.       After that I realized I was like 3hrs from Chicago, hit up my fraternity brother from The Ohio State University, and he said come through because it was Lollapalooza weekend. You know ya boi sent it like a piece of mail. Skrillex played Saturday but we were there Sunday, which was stil...

 4:54 AM     As I sit here writing this blog entry, I can't help but feel excited about today. The money came through finally on my grandmother's estate, I'm dropping off the closing documents for the house sale in St. Paris, and the process with the estate is finishing up after a couple of snares. I woke up this morning, pre 4am. I smoked a cigarette, made breakfast, having coffee as I type this. I've got a nice playlist I've found that is actually a playlist that has honestly been pure vibes. NP: "Show Me How" by Men I Trust. I highly  recommend this artist's sound for any morning, seriously.     So, what's next for tracktailor? That's a good fucking question. I wish I had the answer, but I know I will find it in the processes and systems I'm setting in place now. I need to find an early morning to early afternoon gig, with weekends off. I want this job schedule because I would be able to bang out jobs for my business venture in the eveni...

 9:03 PM 07/20/24     Well, since I last posted, A LOT has happened in my life. It's time for a quick recap.  8:40 AM 07/21/24     UPDATE: I passed out so hard last night. Now, I will recap all the "changes" happening in my life.      We moved from one AirBNB to the next for about a week or less, then moved into our new house in Vienna, WV.       I didn't get any of the jobs I applied for. Which might be a good thing. I have been throwing together an idea for a business and with the inheritance check I received yesterday from my grandmother's  estate, this could become a definite reality. I still need to find something during the daytime hours and leave my weekends free to make this side hustle a full time job.      I've played a lot of disc golf, and have spent a lot of time outdoors. My hair is getting more blonde, my skin is becoming tanned, and people tell me I look healthy. I feel healthier but am ...