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 11:04 PM January 8th, 2025


well, here we are


it's 2025 and I'm still the same son of a bitch in the wind. Shout out Corey Smith (listen to "Next Year")


    I will be the first to admit, I have no fucking idea what I'm doing this year. I took a job last year at a local dispensary, and it's been great. Now I'm at a crossroads.... go all in on the marijuana industry in Ohio, or plan my own business. 

    I have the equipment for the business I'm looking to start, yet I was offered full time at my dispensary and want to keep climbing the corporate ladder. I know it might be smoke up my ass, but the reception of my skills and drive has been recognized and talked about in terms of a corporate position. We will see how it pans out. 


I have no idea which direction I'm going in life. I don't think anyone does tbh, but it sucks rn. I haven't felt this lost in awhile, yet I'm confident. I think I can chalk a lot of these feelings to being lonely. I live by myself atm, but I'm ngl, I'd be so much more affective of a human with a woman in my life. Codependency is real, and I have always been "ashamed" of my codependency in a partner. Until my therapist told me it was completely to be that way, especially since it's in our nature in humans to be dependent on one another. Big Sigh


I don't want this post to sound depressive, I'm just being real. I am content in a way with life rn, but I know would be much more my self with someone in it. 

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