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 7:59AM    

    for the first time on this blog, I'm just pouring out thoughts. I've used this blog recently actually only as a check in for my artistry. I've come to realize I have a tough time trying to put my emotions into words in conversation. writing has always been a release, and im tryna find that this AM.


first off, I just felt a degree of hopelessness this am as soon as I woke up. I cried in front of a friend yesterday and they stormed out when I couldn't encapsulate how I was feeling. homie didn't help when he left and said something about talking to someone since I wouldn't to him *door closes*


idk bout y'all but that shit didn't fucking help. I went to the gym yesterday after that and got a good leg day in, but came home and depression slept from 4pm till: well, now. 

I felt a bit manic the days before yesterday, not for any particular reason, just gratuitous amounts of energy and a lil bit of them fast thoughts feel me. I wouldn't call it racing thoughts but, def some manicness to my aura; anyway the whip of bi polar cracked, and I found myself depressed and here we are trying to figure out why lol 


I'll tell you what, the reflective process alone already has helped immensely with my mood any energy

I still couldn't really tell you why I was feeling off yesterday, but I will say the gym has been helping as well.

lol well, call me bp but after these however many sentences, im ready to go workout so, 


I'll talk to yinz soon


- David 



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